Today I wanted to talk about something a little different that I have been thinking about a lot recently. This year I have spent a lot of time exploring the outdoors here in Florida as well as in Colorado and Iceland and being really active. I’ve always loved and appreciated nature and being outside, but it’s a little harder for me than it used to be.
That probably sounds like I have a serious medical issue, but I promise I’m okay. Let me explain. I was a very active child. I participated in years of ballet, jazz, and modern dance as well as tennis, soccer, and horse back riding. I’ve never been a star athlete, but I always continued to stay active. I wasn’t the most fit kid and remember very clearly the way my life seemed to fall apart as I “ran” the mile in middle school (But I was a pro at the sit and reach. High five for flexibility!), but I was always doing something. As time went on and high school came around, so did lots of extra weight and an abundance of inactivity. At the beginning of college, I shed almost 40 pounds, but slowly they crept back into my life. I had a year of reclaiming my health when I worked hard on eating well and being active, but finals and summer break threw me out of whack. This all leads up to now.
To be honest, the issue is that I’m not entirely confident in my physical abilities and I struggle with being overweight (50 pounds overweight, just to clarify). I get stuck on the fact that I got myself into this large rut of semi healthy eating and very low physical activity. Don’t get me wrong. I love nature and being outdoors. I love the feeling after a great work out. I love walking, biking, yoga, and all of that good stuff, but it’s hard to push through sometimes. I’m very easily discouraged and tend to struggle with staying motivated. I understand it’s a journey, up and downs happen, and that being active and healthy is a lifestyle. Trust me, I tell myself all of that constantly. It’s just hard to keep up sometimes.
Beau consistently motivates me and inspires me to embrace the outdoors and has brought me back to appreciating being active. He has encouraged me to pick up running as well as pushed me to embrace the kinds of physical activity I love like ballet. Beau and his family are very active, outdoorsy people and they have included me in a ton of outdoor experiences like hiking, biking, beach adventures, and riding. They have been a fantastic positive influence on me when it comes to keeping active and I appreciate them greatly.
I’m not sure what I’m trying to get out of this post. Maybe just brainstorming some thoughts as to why I’m holding myself back. This year, I want to reclaim my body and move forward. I want to feel better and do more. I constantly challenge myself academically and don’t see why I can’t do that physically. I think I focus on the past a bunch when it comes to where I stand with my health, but here’s to moving forward!
We shall talk soon!
-Tara Joy ❤
PS That muddy knee was due to sliding in a mud patch in Iceland. I’m really graceful.